ADHD can be a curse, but the thought of living without it is alien to me.

By Ana, London · March 18, 2019


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How I feel about ADHD

Living with ADHD daily has caused us to merge together and almost become one. ADHD lives within me, and I don’t feel so much bothered by it.

Of course, even though I may not realise it, it does affect me every day, even in the simple tasks I do. ADHD makes up my personality and is a part of who I am. I don’t know what life is like without ADHD, so I can’t really judge how much of me the ADHD. However, I do know I would be different without it.

How ADHD affects me academically

In school, I generally find myself not paying attention at all on the work I’m being set. I will almost always find myself so deep in thoughts that I don’t even know how I got there. I will always be daydreaming, creating many different scenarios in my head and thinking about 1,000 different possibilities that could occur in each one. I’ve also realised that I always fantasise about impossible events.

Do I ever wish that I didn’t have ADHD?

Yes, sometimes I wonder what life would be like without it. You know, would I be more capable? Smarter maybe? Would I act the same way I do now? Sometimes the thought scares me a bit because what if I lost who I am now and became some unknown, other version of myself? All I know is that I definitely have room for improvement, and if ADHD weren’t in the way, it would be much easier to improve.

However, I accept that this is who I am. I just have to learn to stop fighting it and live alongside it so that I can learn how to do better even with ADHD.